gravity

.gravity.

its inevitable.. times pass, seasons change, leaves fall
and what we have inside us is bound to find its way to where it may want to drift to..

unpredictable
incomprehensible
irreversible


i had a dream last night.
and i saw you in it.

.amaranthine.

broken wing

remember all the things we wanted. now all our memories they're haunted
we were always meant to say goodbye.
even with our fists held high. it never wouldve worked out right.
we were never meant for do or die.

i didnt want us to burn out.
i didnt come here to hurt you, now i cant stop.

i want you to know that it doesnt matter. where we take this road.
someones gotta go.
and i want you to know you couldnt have loved me better.
but i want you to move on.. so im already gone.

looking at you makes it harder. but i know that youll find another.
that doesnt always make you want to cry.

you cant make it feel right when you know that its wrong.
im already gone, already gone.
theres no moving on.. so im already gone.

//already gone

Currently Listening Bleeding Love By Leona Lewis see related

song of the moment..

..bleeding love..

closed off from love. i didnt need the pain
once or twice was enough. and it was all in vain
time starts to pass. before you know it you're frozen.

but something happened. for the very first time with you
my heart melts into the ground. found something true
and everyone's lookin round. thinking im going crazy.

but i dont care what they say. im in love with you.
they try to pull me away. but they dont know the truth.
my heart's crippled by the vein that i keep on closing.
you cut me open and i..

keep bleeding.
keep. keep bleeding love.
i keep bleeding.
i keep. keep bleeding love.
keep bleeding.
keep. keep bleeding love.
you cut me open.

trying hard not to hear. but they talk so loud
their piercing sounds fill my ears. try to fill me with doubt
yet i know that the goal. is to keep me from falling.

but nothing's greater. than the rush that comes with your embrace
and in this world of loneliness. i see your face
yet everyone around me. thinks that im going crazy. maybe. maybe.

and its draining all of me. oh they find it hard to believe
ill be wearing these scars. for everyone to see.

i dont care what they say. im in love with you.
they try to pull me away. but they dont know the truth.
my heart's crippled by the vein that i keep on closing.
you cut me open and i..

keep bleeding.
keep. keep bleeding love.
i keep bleeding.
i keep. keep bleeding love.
keep bleeding.
keep. keep bleeding love.
you cut me open and i..

merry christmas and happy holidays all

i tried something for the first time on monday night as a favor to my dear mom.
i will never do again.
fyi: my mom is the special events coordinator at church and my dad is the praise leader/pastor dude leading the worship.
some of you know that i minored in darkroom/manual photo in college..
the whole freedom of expression. art for art's sake.. etc.

i figured.. how hard could straightforward digital be?

boy was i in for a surprise..

here are the results of an unfamiliar camera (i borrowed from a sweetheart at the last possible
minute and learned to use while shooting), harsh florescent lighting,
limited mobility, and no flash :T

i know..

FALLEN                                                       © lara jade



i know what it means to feel defeat
during victory.
i know how it feels to swallow your tears
and smile.
i know that love is fleeting
while hurt lingers.

i know that you cant have what you want
most of the time.

i have fallen in black holes
and flown through the heavens.

I have grown, lived, laughed, cried, loved, and lost.

Im tired of losing.

-

in the brighest hour
of my darkest day
i realized.. what is wrong with me.

because days come and go.
but my feelings for you
are forever.